letting go

Since it was her final decision, I think I shall not continue hanging onto her already.

I told her not consider everything I tell her about my condition as crap and rubbish.
she will be safer this way too.

I feel so sad when I want to let go, guess I should stop worrying already. You can take care of herself now, there are still friends with her and keeping her company. To me you are the perfect person and I didn't cherish you, I don't deserve you anymore. I have hurt you too much. I won't be woo-ing you back.

For this 2 months you gave me, I am extremely grateful and I will live well and enjoy this time. Everything is fine now, I will not irritate you anymore. Slowly stepping out of your life.

I love you, my girl.

With tears.

missing

wondering around aimlessly.

I want to hug you so tightly like how we were before but I can't do it already.
I am still deeply in love with you, wondering if we can ever be together again.

I want to let go of you but I am afraid that you will get cheated and play with again. I don't wan you to get hurt from being cheated again. I may be wrong. But I will always stay by your side no matter what happen and will be with you whenever you need me. I am always a phone call away.

There is no way for me to know how you are from now on so I cannot protect you like how I use to. Recently I am just getting over jealous with the amount of contact you have with him but it is all alright already. I really miss all those time, I want to be with you till we are old.

I am too over protective and I know it, I should learn to not over worry too much. If I can live on normally, I am grateful to you and in your debt. Thank you for letting me live through the time of happiness.

With loves, always.