wandering

These few days, my condition is seriously unstable.

I can no longer breathe normally. My legs are also not moving the way they should be.
With my breathing problems, it becomes really hard to catch my breath.
I am also having asthma attacks and symptoms during my sleep every night for over a month already.
I am afraid that one day I could not wake up when an attack happen and that would be the day I would not wake up to see this world again.
There are still so many things that I need to do, so much things that I have not had a chance to say.
I am writing everything that I want to say on a notebook and hope it would clear things up.

Wish that every one will be happy. I love all my friends.

Not ready

Guess that I am not ready to face it. I still get the cold rush today. Happen to saw her twice.

why why why?

I want to go speak to her but I can't, afraid that I will irritate her again. Seeing her so happy with her friends, I am sort of relieved.

Now all that is left is to slowly hide my existence for now. Things are becoming more and more dangerous, she would be safe though since now she doesn't hold it anymore.

Best wishes..

trembling

I just got my heart back yesterday. I've never felt such cold rush before, it made me tremble for a long long period of time. She told me that she was happy when she saw me, I was really happy too.

I still did not manage to ask about her, I am worried about her wound, her condition and the situation she is in.

Yesterday was our important day but I have failed to hold us together and we fell a month before that day. I have always been looking forward to the day 21st of June and now it's the past, at least I get to see her on that day.

I don't know.

I am forcing myself to leave you alone and let all you thoughts be there and I don't want to make it clear or whatsoever. It would be better this way, this way you won't be sad anymore.

Hope nothing goes wrong this time. Think of me as anything you want but it alright. You will not be sad and forget about me.

unfulfilled

I just wanted to have a normal conversation with her but I don't think it's possible already.
I've missed the last chance and I am going, sooner than I thought.
Everything is fine I guess, wish her well for her school work and life.

Good bye my friends, it has been a great time being with you guys and thank you for giving me love =D