ys bday meal

2th November

today yi shen treat us( man hao, rena, dovan, kelvin, shi min, christopher, kar fu, boon huat, william, bian bian a.k.a da bian, yi shen him-self and me ) to lunch at pizza hut spent $130 plus plus. thanx alot yi shen. the lunch is an early treat for his birthday which is on the 5th November..

after eating went to the wallet shop to look at the wallet yi shen wanted to buy but in the end didn't as he was afraid that he will regret after buying, then went to arcade as always i watch them play then i go walk walk around then go back to find them and walk around together bah.. then go to coffee bean to have coffee ofcause... then walk home together with yi shen and da bian then chatted with them about our secondary school stuff bah..
well i have to go off now if i were to make it pass tonight it will be great though.. so ya.. bye~

new song

1st November

woke up at like 2.30pm today was very tired.. had lunch and slack at home watching vcd.. come online after dinner and while waiting for video to buff so go look for the song Flavour of life, i heard it from the Jdorama " Hana yori dango 2 " and find the song was nice so decided to change the song for my blog below is the english translated lyrics for it...

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Flavour of life

For some reason it's painful when you say "Thank You"
The unbreakable magic after "good bye" is weakly bittersweet
The Flavor of life, The Flavor of Life

Not friends, but not lovers, we're inbetween
I'm dreaming of the day of the harvest of fresh fruit
Why is it so vexing?

For some reason it's painful when you say "Thank you"
The unbreakable magic after "good bye" is weakly bittersweet
The Flavor of Life, The Flavor of Life

Words of invitation that are simply sweet
Are a sensationless poison
My interest is not peaked by things like that
Life isn't something that you throw away
When things don't go your way

When I'm suddenly asked "what's wrong?" I just say "no, nothing"
The smiling face that disappears after "good bye" isn't like me
The more I wish that I want to believe, the more painful it is
It's more like you to say "I like you" more than "I love you"
The Flavor of Life

When you suddenly remember people you were about to forget
I honestly want to be happy
When I think of the whiteness of the snow that builds up

More than diamonds, I want a soft, warm future
I want to spend my limited time with you
For some reason it's painful when you say "Thank you"
The unbreakable magic after "good bye" is weakly bittersweet
The Flavor of Life, The Flavor of Life

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haiz feeling so empty yet heavy now don know how am i going to continue, i've lost my purpose.. but still hope i can make it tml. Fare well.. just afraid that i don't have the chance to say that anymore.....

phase test and work

30th October

well that day on 30th October which is Thursday, woke up in the morning and received a devastating news and i lose all my mood and stay in bed till like 4pm++ till i came to my senses.. well guess its time to let go of everything and go on with the rest of my days, i've face and escaped death 3 times and i don know if i can do it once again... i just hope i will have like 2 to 3 months so that i can atleast help my project group to finish the tasks.

31st October

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAVEED AND ZHI JING!~!

i wan to apologize for not able to celebrate with u guys, hope u guys enjoyed ur day with the rest =)..

today had phase test in the morning, it was easy.. i was relief when i look through the question paper as its all quite easy to do so i lose all my worries for the test. went for lunch after the test and waited for time to pass then go home for awhile and change to get ready for work, catering at Marina Barrage as its for the official opening of Marina Barrage with LEE Hsien Loong . meet bang ping at city hall then go on to meet up with zhi hao and welfred at marina bay and chye wei will be late so we go off 1st as the rest of the stuff are waiting for us.. have quite alot of fun today at work, laugh so much.. lols

work till 8pm++ bah but have to pack the stuff in and time passed so fast, finish packing and it was already 10.30pm and wait for transport to go back to station as there were no public transport at that place.. reach home at 12am++ went to bath and waited for dota match, and i think i cant ddownload things and play at the same time bah willl get dc from the internet cuz happen twice le so sian then come update blog bah... well getting tired now le so going stop here. bah

what is wrong

seems like I've done something awfully wrong, for u to treat me like this... if i really did, please tell me what had i done wrong. i really don't know what is going on around me anymore.. i really hope that this will clear up soon.. each time i try to chat with u but it seems like I'm the only one talking i guess the old times is gone forever.. each time i think of it, i feel really sad..
my brain is dieing soon i really hope to see the truth before its all come to an end...

chalet

9th October

today was a damn freaking boring day. no events no nothing -.- ... stay home and sleep all day lols and everything went bloody wrong sia, wad the bloody hell is wrong today?.. sian lor so update about chalet...
chalet 3 days 2 night from 6th October to 8th October at costa sand pasir ris resort... people attending are bang ping, zhi hao, ai jia, mei zhen, andrew, welfred, chye wei, ezra, hua jin, man hou, eugene, naveed and me..... people who join us got hua jin, andy, zhi jing, kok keong, bang chuan, derek and jiao wei..

1st day before going to chalet went to school for fyp meeting all say don late then inthe end only me and ai jia the punctual ones the rest late and when they reach they say joel will be very late then all sian liao waste of time only so me and aj went to man hou's house to slack abit and do permit for some of the place then wait awhile for man hou to pack his bag then go meet mei xhen then go chalet together... reach chalet at about 5pm+ and the others getting ready for BBQ some inside play games and some watching tv then afew of us went to cheers to get some alcohol to drink wah then is like the 1st time drink and got high sia zz also don know why... after bbq all gone back inside to slack bah awhile later we play forfiet games play till morning then some went to watch sunrise and some went to sleep..

2nd day wait for each other to wake up and bathe then want to eat breakfast but end up raining and have to wait then eat lunch.. after lunch went for a walk and rent bicycle and planned to ride to changi village to have our dinner.. took so long and so much energy to ride to changi lor zz, after dinner we ride to the beach for awhile plan to ride to airport but very far and everyone is tired so stop at the place where the plane flew pass to land can see the plane flying so near to us sia haha... stop there awhile then ride back to chalet liao.. reach chalet all rest then i go buy vodka to drink cuz not in good mood bah, don ask why...

3rd day got nothing much cuz after i drink then sleep quite well.. woke up and prepare to book out and go return the bicycle and have our breakfast then went home bathe and sleep le..

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nothing out of ordinary

4th October

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AARON LIM =)

on the 2nd of October went to recee at fort canning park but after walking 1 round of the park there isn't anything special bah then went in to ask the person whether we are allowed to film at there or not but unfortunately we wasn't as that place was copy righted..

at night our group and bang ping, mei zhen, welfred, chye wei, wei xing and kok keong, to do a reshoot for our project at pasir ris park - mangroove swamp but the generator was not strong enough to power the red heads(lightings) so the shoot was a failure... so SORRY to our Guest make u guys wasted ur time to come all the way to help but in the end its for nothing..

on the 3rd of October went to pasir ris park - mangroove swamp to shoot only the host part and done another trail shoot. After shoot we went to have our lunch and head over to wennhaoo's house to do some editting.. at about 7pm++ went to have dinner with mei zhen then go home le..

today 4th October morning wake up watch Kid's Central together with my little bro.. while waiting for wenhao and rena to reach jurong then go cut hair then eat lunch then go home and rot till now then nothing to do some come update blog haha =)...
later going to hao's house to celebrate aaron's birthday...

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LOVE MUSIC~

the bread that he baked from the morning
puts a smile on that hungry girl
the flowers that she nurtured
fully bloom gifting a smile
I want to reach you through this sound that will become yours
I want to deliver this poem as a voice which will become yours
when this world receives a small bit of love
someday a great big love will be shown to everyone
the happenings of your existence today
becomes one unchangeable page
In the large amount of blood shed
pours forth immutable tears
I want to reach you through this sound that will become yours
I want to deliver this poem as a voice which will become yours
if we embrace, no matter how bitter the sadness
there'll be a time where we can talk about it with a smile
when you again become a coward from having lost to yourself
let's stop running away
when this world receives a small bit of love
someday a great big love will be shown to everyone

thought of mine

thoughts


if time could turn back even for just a few seconds wouldn't it be great for everyone..?
humans are such fragile beings, we get hurt over simple little things. we cant persevere through minor hardship without sacrifice.

I wonder how much more time do i have. even if I'm gone, all the precious memories will always be there.. before I got the chance to even know you, I was prepared to move on back to the dark, but now I don wan to go back in to that dark world..each time one of them went back in i was so worried that it would be me next.. time has pass so quickly without us even noticing.

is following the path that my heart chose wrong? or i should have chosen the other one then i wont feel so much pain and doubt as i have now. theres times that i might have done something wrong as everyone's attitude is changing towards me or am i just thinking too much.. i'm so confused now.. every time i didn't tell or tell u somethings u will give me that kind of attitude and it just hurts so much. i just don feel like tell it to anyone my troubles anymore it will always turn out even worse for me after that...