letting go

Since it was her final decision, I think I shall not continue hanging onto her already.

I told her not consider everything I tell her about my condition as crap and rubbish.
she will be safer this way too.

I feel so sad when I want to let go, guess I should stop worrying already. You can take care of herself now, there are still friends with her and keeping her company. To me you are the perfect person and I didn't cherish you, I don't deserve you anymore. I have hurt you too much. I won't be woo-ing you back.

For this 2 months you gave me, I am extremely grateful and I will live well and enjoy this time. Everything is fine now, I will not irritate you anymore. Slowly stepping out of your life.

I love you, my girl.

With tears.

missing

wondering around aimlessly.

I want to hug you so tightly like how we were before but I can't do it already.
I am still deeply in love with you, wondering if we can ever be together again.

I want to let go of you but I am afraid that you will get cheated and play with again. I don't wan you to get hurt from being cheated again. I may be wrong. But I will always stay by your side no matter what happen and will be with you whenever you need me. I am always a phone call away.

There is no way for me to know how you are from now on so I cannot protect you like how I use to. Recently I am just getting over jealous with the amount of contact you have with him but it is all alright already. I really miss all those time, I want to be with you till we are old.

I am too over protective and I know it, I should learn to not over worry too much. If I can live on normally, I am grateful to you and in your debt. Thank you for letting me live through the time of happiness.

With loves, always.

boring holidays

this holiday really sucks.
so bored with no work and money.
not much time to work also le
can only get those temporally jobs.
lucky still got next 2 days of catering and F1 catering so think can survive till pay comes in ba
so much things happened with bad overpowering the bad
really hope everything will get well
its really hard to see everyone like that
where I can't do anything to help.

for the past weeks have been going out and spending money like water
have to stay home for the rest off my holidays le
still got chalet need to pay

so sorry love have to make you stay home with me
don think too much, I will always love you de =)

sian holidays

sian de la..
holiday and jobless, worst is no money!
who got job to intro? haha

W14A scatter liao sia hope can keep in contact
hope new class also as fun, if not then will like no life liao..
wish everyone good luck in their new class and work hard.
will miss you guys..

UT3!!

after 2 days of UT3
Enterprise and Science
both were alright haha
still can manage, never stress that much
tml is Cognitive and problem solving should be easier for me
I never use much reference for the UTs sia
scared i make mistake but too lazy to refer le lols
So tired each day trying to make myself awake
gotta relax myself, my mind and my body soon le
before i really falls ill..
my body conditions are so unstable now
hope i can hold till end of UT3 which is like 5 more days

tml is my 2nd month with love =)
I love you, eehwa ^^
jiayou for your UT3
you can do well de =)

well going end here le ba
Good luck to everyone who is working towards their goals and work hard!

early sunday

wow today woke up early at 8++am
and I did not sleep untill 5.30am
sorry love, I didn't want to wake you up..
I'm still wide awake!
what the HELL!!!

going to rot whole day
study as promised
don't know what to do next
I have to jia you for UT3
Love you have to jia you too

walked with love

so long nvr blog le getting lazier haha..

today had lunch at KFC with love.
walked around JP awhile
walked all the way from JP to phoenix
haha had fun chatting while walking
stop at west mall to buy bubble tea
then continue walking

enjoy spending time with her =)