graduation from ITE CE

11th Feb

well long time no update due to some issues..

today was the graduation day for ITE CE classes of dec 08.
was happy that i graduated and will miss life in ITE CE had lots of fun and
some sad things happened too but will not let it stop me from moving forward..

plan to go marina square or suntec have lunch at seoul garden.
took bus 2 to bugis with bang ping, welfred, zhi hao, mei zhen, andrew, ezra, andy, hua jin, naveed, arif, sufyan, zhi jing, derek, chee wee, chye wei and wei xing. reach bedok hua jin say take mrt so some of us follow take mrt over to city hall.
went to marina square after the ceremony, i went to walk alone and join the rest afterwards.
found wad I'm looking for so walk over to mac and look for the others while trying to decide whether to buy anot. Then saw some of them eating so i sit down join them and chat.
meet up the rest of the group and they say go eat seoul garden to take our lunch but it wasn't worth at that time as its only till 3.59pm (4pm for student). and some one say go eat pizza hut instead as they were famished and somehow it turn out to be like our fault they wan go pizza hut..
so nvm me, bp, zh went over to arcade look for hua jin they all..
ate subway as i was very hungry already + someone tell me he wan go home eat so i accompany bp at subway.
I also don feel like cooking my own food as some stuff happened earlier so lost the mood.
somehow people make them look like they were the victim. I'm so not feeling well today talk to them they turn away and some more walk away i go off he come back straight so i was really ****** up.. we plan outing we invite them, yet they didn't want us around when they plan..
I felt like going home but thought it will get better when we get there but end up worst..
I just wanted to have a good meal then so many things have to happen..

PLEASE DO NOT MISUNDERSTOOD AND JUMP INTO CONCLUSION, THANK YOU...

work at fort canning

20th December

well today had catering work at fort canning park.. woke up at 7am as i set the alarm for 'pm' =.= so rush abit bath le take shirt then go off liao meet welfred, zhi hao and ivan(?) i'm not sure about his name xp psps... had breakfast at macdonalds.. then off to the park to set up the stations.. work till 3pm as it was a lunch buffet.. so went to plaza singapura and walk around as very bored and don wan to go home so early when walking towards the mall ivan left so left 3 of us walk till like 4++ 5pm i forgot le cuz too tired lols... went home after a drink at kopi roti(coffee shop)...

reach home le bathe and rest awhile then had dinner while surfing the net... then play game awhile then come blog hehe.. end here bah don know wad to write le...

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wonder why am i even doing all this,
no one even cares or understands at all, is it wrong to care?
just a few days back i find that the erosion has resume,
thank you for giving me the will to fight the past few months.
lost my purpose, my will and my strength to fight on..
i may be wrong, i may be right. who knows, maybe its neither...
wonder will i be able to find it back.

picnic (botanic garden)

19th December

today is picnic day organised by yueli..
today woke up settle some stuff and look for my picnic mat but sadly it wasn't found..
bathe then went out and off to city hall to meet up with bang ping, bang chuan, chwee mui and welfred..
i reached early at 11.50am so i went to bread talk to buy a snack just when i finish it i saw chwee mui came out from the station, so we went 1st to carrefour as the others will be late, went there to buy some drinks, paper cups and napkins. when we were going to pay the rest reach.. took bus to botanic garden and waited for yueli, mei zhen, naveed, hamizan and zhi jing to reach.. yueli reached 1st but she got down the wrong stop and ran all the way to botanic garden lols, awhile later the rest reach so we went in and look for a spot to settle down.. ate the "poison" sadwich ok it was tuna sandwich that yueli prepared haha.. mei xhen and naveed bought chips, bang chuan and chwee mui bought curry puff. eat a few sandwich we played frisbee while chwee mui was sitting down watching things and the stuff and mei zhen, naveed, hamizan and zhi jing went to walk around.. then after that palyed ice and water lols so fun sia run too much liao then leg abit ache then rest awhile and it started to rain so went in to the shelter and eat the chips, curry puff and oreos and play poker cards while waiting for the rain to stop, we were bored tiil we were facinated by the ants gathering the foods lols..

when the rain stops played awhile more then pack up and walked around the park then went to ecology garden.. the view there was nice and clean with 2 black swans and it was getting pretty dark so i cant see beyond the late shores at all so i can onli spot 2 swans.. when we wanted to go out of the park we went in circles as we were kinda lost, the nearest exit were block out by the construction site so have to go back to the main gate.. took bus to station and all went home..

reach home about 10pm went to bathe and come online and ate my fried rice and come blogging le.. end here bah =)..

bored 18th dec 08

everyone falling apart,
everyone's turning away.
cant help it but to feel the pain.
doing things you told people not to, yet you yourself are doing so.
why is all this happening.
because of you i had made sacrifices upon myself,
now that i have stop, everything will go back to you as they once were.
sometimes telling the truth will clear things up,
delaying will only make the misunderstanding deepens.

always pretending that i didn't know,
always pretending that i didn't heard it.
even though I cant always keep it inside me,
thus the pain and energy is building up inside of me,
I did not want to let it out in front of them.
taking in the pain and damage all by myself,
feeling lonely inside, no one understands.
always putting on a strong front.
I'm tired of looking for the answers.
I don't wan to ask anymore, just wasting my breath anyway.

time is short, i just wanted to enjoy, i just want to have fun with all my friends.
smiling and laughing away around them those were the times i really felt that i existed,
i were really happy, but it hasn't last long.
even like this its just seems to be turning to worst.
maybe is not so bad that the sight to feel people's pain and the sight of truth were taken away.
i always wonder am i really seen all these, even if i think its a delusion but its all so true,
there's no excuse i could tell myself its all fake.

so i hope things won't go wrong with tomorrow's outing/gathering.
lets all be happy and put on a big smile. =D

sentosa

10th December

woke up at 9.30am and prepare for Sentosa trip when about to head off, something need to be done 1st, after that rush to mrt station and off to harbor front to meet up with the others..
theres me, mei zhen, welfred, naveed, arif, wei xing and derrick attending this trip little but its alright as i plan to go there to relax only haha =)

thought i will be late but in the end i was the 1st to reach and earlier then expected at 11.05am but meeting time is 11.15am.. awhile later welfred reach followed by mei zhen and naveed. then went to have our lunch at kopitiam as others have not reach...

after lunch went up to tram station to meet up with wei xing and derrick then waited for arif to arrive.. took the sky train to sentosa and went to siloso beach and play
around at the beach.. played and relaxed and play and relax haha quite fun although less ppl then the last time.. one thing wasted is that nvr take any photos of us burrying wei xing twice so funny sia he keep trying to get up while we stacking the sand higher and higher on him..

at about 5pm+ we went to wash up and went to merlion there. while on the way took quite an amount of photos but didn't go up as need to pay =)
went back to vivo city and had dinner at KFC then walk walk around and decided to watch movie then say go watch BOLT, the movie was great.. so funny and have a nice story line and flow... can go watch.. after watch then go home le..

update blog while eating fried frice haha...

laughs

6th December

ytd work as caterer at SAFTI MI work from morning till night.. so tiring sia the 3 executive in-charge of my lane is like shit keep doing the wrong things and when times come for clearing 1 went mia, 1 tok on phone, 1 was day-dreaming then awhile later when other lanes cleared half way then they go then we have to rush haizz very sian.. then drink quite abit of white wine cuz no kik at all but when getting on to the bus to boon lay felt abit giddy le, reached boon lay my leg was like no strentgh so ndon wan to go home 1st then accompanny bang ping and jason(manager) to eat then jason so good treat bang ping and me drink and noodles haha after eating i waitedfor my last bus home and think bang ping got on to the last train bah then jason go look for his fren...

today woke up and went for work at sim lim square and so many errors cock up sia so don wan to tok a bout it then at 2pm i go find andrew then tell him i need to go off le then got more problems =.= today not my day sia then go buy clothes with bang ping as zhi hao onli come awhile then go back amk find his stead, then after buying we have lunch then walk walk abit then went home le as very tired ad quite sian cuz nothing to do le..

reached home wnet to bath and have dinner then come online and while waiting for some shows to buff then come blogging..

may have found the girl i like but...

3rd December

Have been going to school to do video edit lately but most of the time was slacking around cuz holiday and working mood le then don feel like doing it plus cant concentrate for some reasons..
then go school so sian lor holiday le still have to go henggot work so can get out of school for awhile haha..

The last day of work at the IT show (SITEX) was better then the last 3 days bah sold 1 sets of laptop total sell 17 sets for the whole show, 1st day 3 2nd day 2 3rd day 1 =.= then heng last day not 0 sia haha... have lots of fun although tiring and its a good experience too meet some new friends. so plan to work on the next IT show as well hope can meet more nice ppl =).

So tired lor this 2 weeks not enough sleep at all then still ppl giving me troubles and problems so sian lar!.. haiz wad the hell lor. now wan tto chiong work and earn lots of money to construct a good comp. found some odd jobs(intros from friend, and zh de catering 2 days) this few days cfm got work le so can slowly look for a full-time one, tml going to bugis work with the same company i work for during the IT show.

today went to school do some editing and puting in of SFX and editing the subtitles for my FYP then go meet bp they all at orchard, cineleisure, got bang ping, welfred, mei zhen, andrew and his gf, si hao, naveed, zhi jing, kok keong, derek and thier friend i forget the name. go there walk walk and have dinner at BK with welf and bp while the rest go up to arcade then after finish then go ljs have their dinner chat abit then go home le..

found out something then thought to myself, "lucky i didn't fell so much if not i really don know how to go on anymore liao, so lucky that i didn't fell so deep =)" don ask wad is it bah for those might know or guess just keep it to urself please..

just very tired le wonder when then can have a good rest. wish can sleep well every night and don think so much if not later collapse and have to spend more money le so i will always be happy and cheerful as someone told me that when u are happy u wont fall sick easily and i think its rather true bah.. so be happy and stay happy =D

end here le bah good luck for those who are looking for a job. =)